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Wednesday

                           Hey Huns,



So if you read yesterday's post on my eventful start to the year, well I thought today would be much MUCH better but my expectations again are at an all time low, I think when you get something in your head and want to make changes that pressure stops things from working out and I think I'm having one of them weeks where everything you try to commit to and complete doesn't go to plan, lemme know if you feel me

So today having all this spare time to myself makes me concentrate on certain areas of my body and personality which is never good, having too much thinking time is unhealthy for someone like me because I literally overthink life I'll lose my mind over a hair out of place on my eyebrow, I'll end up having a breakdown for ten hours over my appearence and then ask myself what the hell am I doing. Do you ever have days/weeks like that? Where you're just so emotional all the time and I think what's making me more snappy and emotional is because this month is gonna be such a big change, moving away and defending for myself, THATS PRETTY SCARY RIGHT

But here's my advice for dealing with negative thoughts about everything, don't set major major goals like me oh today I'll make a YouTube video because that's pretty simple isn't it, obviously not and I felt like a complete failure when I felt so uncomfortable Infront of the camera and then thought how the hell am I going to be Stacey Dooley if I can't stand my voice or face on camera?????

1) STOP OVERTHINKING LIFE 
2) THOSE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS DEATORY YOU, DISTRACTION IS KEY
3) DON'T PUT YOURSELF DOWN, INSTEAD OF POINTING OUT EVERYTHING NEGATIVE, LIST THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

Most importantly don't waste away your teen years aiming for things you don't think you can ever be, go out and do it, literally losing sight of goals and giving up is like giving Into a bully remain positive and things do work out, but creating so much pressure makes the opposite (which I'm currently experiencing) 

So if you ever need a shoulder to cry on or someone to rant to, WELL HELLO!!!

I will ty again with the old YouTube, because it's something I want to do so I'm not gonna give up after trying once, even if it takes me years to convince myself I'm not that bad on camera 

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